Category Archives: Dealing With Anger

Fighting, Violence And Defending Yourself

The discretion of a man makes him slow to anger, And his glory is to overlook a transgression. – Proverbs 19:11

To everything there is a season, A time for every purpose under heaven: – Ecclesiasties 3:1

Being in prison is much different than being in society.  You are in there with gang bangers, killers, thieves, rapists, addicts, and bullies of every sort. They are not in there for being nice.  The strong love to prey on the weak in there just for something to do. You have nowhere to run and no place to hide in there to avoid it either.  Face it right now, at some point, you are going to HAVE to defend yourself in there.

Know this, God did not save you to become a doormat for people to wipe their feet on. HE knows where you are at.  If you can avoid a fight, by all means do it, but if you can’t, tear the other persons head off!

It does not matter whether you win or lose, but show the other person that you will not be abused and that you will fight back when and if you have to!

When I was in there, a convict (we will call him Brian) was walking the yard daily, praying and praising God, not bothering a soul.  A Muslim inmate did not like it and put a two pound weight in his t shirt and hit Brian over the head with it, splitting Brians head open!  Be a victor in there not a victim! Defend yourself if you have to!

Use your discretion.  There are some things just not worth fighting over like someone cutting in front of you in the chow line.  But someone stealing your mail and then writing your family and asking them for money ect, you have got to kind of answer that. Someone insults your mother in there and threatens to go rape her when they get out, you have got to answer that too. Someone touches your butt in the shower, you had better slug him. Forget telling the guards or your case manager or the warden about it.  That is called snitching and that will get you killed.  Always handle things yourself as best you can.  Ask God to help you. 

Don’t go looking for it, but do not run away either.  If you run away from a confrontation, you look weak to the other guys in there and open yourself up to a host of problems, like having your stuff stolen, being harrassed,being assaulted repeatedly and possibly even being raped.

During my 15 years in there, I had many fights.  I won some and lost some, but I always stood my ground.  I remember a time when 11 black gang bangers broke my ribs and gave me a head concussion simply because I was white.  I left a few of them on the floor with me.  Imagine what would have happened had I not tried to defend myself?  I might have been permanently injured or been killed.

Being a Christian does not mean you have to be weak, timid or cowardly.  Avoid trouble when and if you can.  If not, defend yourself!

Guards, Case Workers, & Wardens

Let every soul be subject to the governing authorities. For there is no authority except from God, and the authorities that exist are appointed by God.  Therefore whoever resists the authority resists the ordinance of God, and those who resist will bring judgment on themselves. – Romans 13:1-2

Guards, Caseworkers, Wardens, most of them are no better than the prisoners they watch over.  I have seen them handcuff an inmate and 4 or 5 of them beat him down while he is handcuffed.  I have seen them bring in drugs to prisoners.  I have seen them play favoritism for money from outside. I have seen them pit one prisoner against another for the fun of it.  Not all of them are like that mind you, but a whole lot of them are.

Since there are more prisoners than there are guards.  A lot of guards like to use a technique called confusion therapy.  They try to pit one convict against another.  As long as they can keep prisoners fighting amongst themselves, there is less focus on them and therefore it gives the guard better control.

Get one thing straight.  NONE of them LIKE you in there.  If you think they do, you got a rude awakening coming.  They might PRETEND to like you if they think they can manipulate you or get some information out of you.  However, as soon as they get what they need, they will toss you aside like a piece of garbage.

Yet, like it or not, they are in authority over you.  God put them in authority for a reason.  Exactly why is not for you to know, only God knows why. 

When I was in there, I did not get close to a guard.  I did what they told me and that was it.  It is best if you do the same.  You may not like it, I sure didn’t, but lets not forget that the guard did not put you in prison. You did that yourself.

Rebelling against authority is the main reason you are in there.  The law said do not steal,some of you stole.  The law said do not do or deal in drugs,some of  you did that.  The law said not to hurt or kill another human being, some of you did that too.  The law says not to kidnap or rape and some of you even did that.  The law of society was AUTHORITY and you rebelled against it, and as the above verses state, you brought judgement upon yourself.

Be a saved Christian in there. If the guard says mop the dorm, mop it.  If he says roll in on your bunks, roll in.  Don’t whine, cry and complain about it, just do it.  You do not have to LIKE the authority in there, but you do have to respect and obey it.

You will find your time will go much easier and when you get out you will find yourself respecting and obeying the laws of society rather than fighting and rebelling against it.